Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Brian Buchanan
Brian Buchanan

A passionate chef and food writer with over a decade of experience in creating innovative dishes and sharing culinary stories.

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